just wanted to say hello to everyone on this forum.
i've "lurked" for quite some time, thought it was time make my first post.
my story is long and boring and too complicated to remember so the short version is this:.
hey exjwshell ...
.... its nice to see somebody is newer than me!
and one newbie to another ... i love this group. its the therapy I never knew I needed.
oh ...
it is nice to be in 'gathering' of 'friends' who know the LINGO in these 'last days' with all the 'worldly' influences that 'Satan the Devil' throws in our way to 'stumble' us. here in this group, finally, 'The Truth keeps getting brighter'.
or dingier (depending on perspective).
taylorS
hey guys ... what the youngest known case of disfellowshipping?
and what's the story behind it if you know?.
taylors
me.. i'm 40 and still waiting for my tail to get hot.
candidlynuts ... lol
... I'm sure its hotter than you think
taylorS
hey guys ... what the youngest known case of disfellowshipping?
and what's the story behind it if you know?.
taylors
14 year old boy and 16 year old gal, both DFed for copulating like rats. Caught by the gal's father, an elder, and while judicials were being held. the 2 ran away and continued to copulate.
LOL. If that wasn't so funny ... it would be extremely sad. LMAO!
tS
the witnesses know how to getcha to "do more".
guilt is their main weapon.
if you feel guilty over something no one might ever know about, the watchtower society has seen to it that even whatever you might have thought of or done in secret will be revealed.......were you ever guilty of a secret sin??
masturbation as a secret sin. How I remember that. I remember the first time I made MS. They asked if I knew of any reason why couldn't serve as a MS and I immediately thought of how much I masturbated and looked at porn. Of course I said, "no" and they made me a MS.
I was obsessed with all things even remotely erotic since I was thirteen. Yeah ... I was a myopic, knobby-kneed dirty little boy.
I would invite friends over just so I could pounce, wrestle them into submission, and grind on their butts.
Then I accidentally discovered masturbation .... and that was all she wrote. I think I stayed in my room for weeks ... well, coming out only to go to school, forage for food, and of course the obligatory meetings for necessary spiritual food.
But my obsession got worse I began to suffer from what I dubbed Horny Attacks. These would strike at the oddest moments, demanding attention .... and as the borg might say, Resistance was futile.
So ... more than once ... I went into the restroom at the KH to address the problem. Funny thing, once you engage in a horrible behavior ... it becomes easier to do the next time. The guilt festered as the urge to do it increased.
I NEVER confessed to doing that until now ... twenty five years later. I just lived with that guilt, with a lascivious smirk, and waited for the fabled hair to grow on my right palm.
taylorS
" i was thinking today about hating the wts, and you know i really do, and for many reasons which i won't really get into here.. on this thought, i imagined the jwd (jesus' wacky discussion forum) website of 2000 years ago.
i'm sure many of jesus' new followers would start threads about having their hands cut off, being stoned and the secret backroom shenanigans of the pharisees.
all there is, is hate here!
I spent my first two years after I got out getting even -1989 to 1991. A person has the power the shut down the door-to-door work at a KH, if he wants to put in the time. You can take all the joy out of going to the KH for them and any respect in the community. After 2 years of guerilla warfare, I got on with my life and never looked back.shalom,
Moshe
Moshe ... I'd love to hear that story. Did you post it anywhere on this site? Not that I plan on any guerrilla tactics, just curious.
I left the org in '89. But I only recently started hating them. Thing is, when I left, I still believed the big A was around the corner. I was nineteen and knew I couldn't live such boring life ... going door to door was not my thing. I'd always been mortified in field service when I ran into someone I knew, someone from school ... or later in my teens, someone I'd slept with. I'd never been a good little witness anyway ... secretly indulging my lascivious desires since I was young teen. I just wanted to have fun. I wanted a real life. And if I had to go to another 'gathering' where we all sat around playing some word game I would've slit my wrist.
So I left. Disassociated myself from family and friends.
But the point is, even as I partied and played I was always looking over my shoulder terrified of my inevitable fate. I was haunted my fear of the big A.
That was twenty years ago. I had once thought that growing up JW made me a better person. Now I know that it's damaged me. This site is like therapy. I've only been on here a week and I've gone through thread after thread ... reconnecting with a past I've mostly blocked out. I now realized had I not be indoctrinated and mostly assimilated by the borg, my life would have taken a much different course. It's wasn't until my thirties, ten years after leaving, that I began to see the cult-like nature of the JWs, and it began to dawn on me that the big A wasn't coming ... at least not in the way they were preaching.
I went back to school, and regreted not doing it earlier. I don't hate witnesses individually ... I hate the organization. I hate that my mom is still under their spell. I hate the fact that I lived my life for a decade believing I was on some list of those to die and be eaten my vultures. That supposed inevitablity affects how you live your life. I engaged in every reckless behavior imaginable, drugs & sex (lots and lots of drugs and sex). It took a decade to pull myself out of that hedonistic downslide ... and almost another one to get over it.
Yeah ... I hate them.
Someone once said that life begins at forty. Well, in my case ... its 39.
taylorS
poor thing, she's had alzheimer's for about 10 years and the last year she's been on hospice care because she's been so close to death.
the past few months she's been slowly filling up with water -- they gave her lasix (not sure of the spelling) to relieve the edema and it worked, sort of.
last weekend she actually looked a little better.
So sorry about your loss ... I'm sending you strength to make it through. Wish I could do more.
tS
since i am sort of late to the party this has probably been beaten to death and if it has just kick this thread to the curb.
i was 11 years old in 1975 and i remember being scared silly the whole year.
i mean there was so much hype about it and the tension in the air was so thick it was unreal.
I may never talk to her again, and I really don't care. I have disfellowshiped her.
Larc ...
that's really sad and I'm sorry to hear that. My mother pushed away a younger sister years ago when she was disfellowshiped. I was a teenager then. She's a drunk now and hates my mom with a passion. She calls every few years just to cuss her out. My mom loves her. But sadly, she loves Jehovah more.
tS
since i am sort of late to the party this has probably been beaten to death and if it has just kick this thread to the curb.
i was 11 years old in 1975 and i remember being scared silly the whole year.
i mean there was so much hype about it and the tension in the air was so thick it was unreal.
I was 9 in '75. I have no recollection of any hysteria amongst my family or anyone in the cong. But then again, I didn't take many things too seriously when I was nine. I was obsessed with bugs then ... bugs and anything that creeped, crawled or slithered.
Maybe if some mutant Potato Beetle was to fated to come and destroy the wicked in '75 ... I would've paid more attention.
tS
hey guys ... what the youngest known case of disfellowshipping?
and what's the story behind it if you know?.
taylors
Hey guys ... what the youngest known case of disfellowshipping? And what's the story behind it if you know?
taylorS
i grew up in the truth since the age of 6, but the philosophy on singleness always bothered me.
for many years i couldn't explain why.
i didn't even understand myself.
there's a thread on here that goes 'Are you an apostate' or something like that. you should check it out because questioning the GB is, in their twisted minds, like questioning Jah himself ... and therefore (ding ding ding), you're an apostate.
but don't sweat it son ... if reasonable questioning makes you an apostate ...
then wear the badge proudly .
taylorS
PS -- Screw being single. What kind a sadistic god would give you extreme cravings, and then tell you to suppress them (as if you ever truly can ***Catholic Priests***). My mom spent my entire life being single because she couldn't find a suitable 'brother' and she didn't want to put me (her only child) through the evil stepdad thing that she went through, inspite of all the 'worldly' suitors who were constantly after her. i love her for that ... but its yet another JW bug up my ass about THAT GROUP.
